Last September, as I was leaving work on a Friday afternoon I got the email from our licensor, “Congratulations! You are licensed foster parents.” I called Jeff to tell him. All of a sudden after months of preparation, it was today. We were both anxiously excited. Jeff was going out of town for the weekend… Continue reading A baby?
I ran into an old friend the other day. Usually I dread seeing people from waaay back (I’m talking high school… Don’t act like you don’t hide!) but this time I was actually delighted. It’s been over ten years since I saw him and it was wild to all of sudden be standing there chatting.… Continue reading That’s not it
This is our fourth year making Team Blake shirts. We design a new one every year around this time because of a walk we do for Cure SMA. I always have a fear that no one will buy. Then you all blow me away. All proceeds from tees sold go to Cure SMA on behalf… Continue reading Team Blake Year Four
In just a few days, it will be 2 years and 6 months since Blake died. I will never stop saying that I can’t believe SMA came into our lives and stole my perfect girl. All the time we ask ourselves why this happened? Why her? Why our family? My big girl has been asking… Continue reading It’s a lot
I was scrolling through Facebook the other night, which I do too often, when I saw a quote that someone shared. It was shared in a foster/adoption group so the reference was clearly to children. Before my rant, I want to mention that I don’t think that’s what this quote was intended for originally. I also… Continue reading You can’t replace
Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day or Child Loss Remembrance Day. I prefer the latter but that’s just me. One of the reasons this blog still exists is to spread awareness. It’s definitely more than just awareness of Spinal Muscular Atrophy (although you will NEVER stop hearing from me about SMA). It’s child… Continue reading October 15
If you’ve been with me here for a while, based on the title, you already know what I might say. If you don’t agree with me that’s just fine. I can only speak to my experience (along with tons of professional opinions I’ve gathered). People ask me questions about talking to kids about losing a… Continue reading Talking to kids about death
I can’t believe it. Today is the day that my second daughter was born three years ago. She was 8lbs 10oz, 21 inches long and completely perfect. Getting to watch my two girls meet for the first time is forever etched in my heart. We didn’t know then that she would end up with the… Continue reading Three
Recently, I’ve had a great deal of really nice comments from people. They’ve said things about me “having it all together”, “handling loss with grace” and “being so strong.” I’m so appreciative of people who reach out to me and say kind things. I really, really am. They also got me thinking about what I… Continue reading All together? Nope.
Today marks the second anniversary of Blake’s death. Some people call it an angelversary or remembrance of the date of passing. It’s just a really hard and shitty day for Jeff and I. It’s a reminder (although we never forget) that our baby is no longer with us. It feels like yesterday and so long… Continue reading August 10, 2016
