If you missed it, read A baby? first. After we said yes, we told the social worker that we would like to go and see her in the hospital. It only took a couple hours before we were given the go ahead to visit. I remember saying to Jeff in the elevator, “What do we say… Continue reading We meet
This is our fourth year making Team Blake shirts. We design a new one every year around this time because of a walk we do for Cure SMA. I always have a fear that no one will buy. Then you all blow me away. All proceeds from tees sold go to Cure SMA on behalf… Continue reading Team Blake Year Four
In just a few days, it will be 2 years and 6 months since Blake died. I will never stop saying that I can’t believe SMA came into our lives and stole my perfect girl. All the time we ask ourselves why this happened? Why her? Why our family? My big girl has been asking… Continue reading It’s a lot
My sweet friend told me recently, “I think you’re just better at being a mom than I am. You make it look so easy.” Here’s the deal: I think we all suffer a little bit from highlighting the happy or good looking times on social media. I don’t know about you, but I’m not super… Continue reading My secret
Most loss parents dread the question, “How many children do you have?” I am one of them. I. Hate. It. Seriously, every single time I get that awful feeling of so much sadness and not knowing what to say. Do I tell them all about my family and accept the discomfort and look of terror… Continue reading Parenting
I traveled this week to Southern Oregon where my Grandmother and other extended family lives. We had gotten a call days before that required my mom to emergently travel. When she arrived it was clear to my sister and I that we should follow. I won’t go into detail (because I don’t think my Grandma… Continue reading Kindness matters
We have been working on something for a little while so I’ll rewind back a bit. Jeff and I always thought we’d have lots of kids. Ok, maybe just me but Jeff married me so whatever. After we lost Blake, we were surprised by our pregnancy with Ayla. We are so grateful to be our girls’… Continue reading New adventures
I was driving to work the other day and the guy on the radio was talking about Father’s Day. He asked people to call in and answer the question, “What is something your Dad told you that you’ve always remembered? Something that just really sticks with you.” I knew my answer immediately. When I was… Continue reading Something my Dad told me
It’s been a long time since I sat down to even think about writing a blog post. Ayla recently turned 3 months old and I can’t believe it. We’ve had a hard few months since she was born. Kenley and Blake were both happy tiny babies. Blake was the happiest and Kenley could usually be… Continue reading It’s been a while
We’ve been so busy with our newest addition, I haven’t had much time to write (or do anything else). I introduced her over on Facebook but neglected to do so here. Ayla Blake was born just over three weeks ago. She weighed 8lbs 6oz (our littlest!) and was 20 1/2 inches long. We’re still in… Continue reading Ayla Blake
Still Finding Sunshine 