It’s been a long time since I sat down to even think about writing a blog post. Ayla recently turned 3 months old and I can’t believe it. We’ve had a hard few months since she was born. Kenley and Blake were both happy tiny babies. Blake was the happiest and Kenley could usually be calmed down. Not Ayla. I’ve never seen a baby who can scream quite like that girl. I know what you’re thinking – babies cry! They do, but man it sure is an adjustment when it’s not what you’re used to. This is hard for me, especially when a lot of my grief manifests as anxiety. For a long time, I was sure there was something “wrong” with Ayla and I just wasn’t seeing it.

Anyway: Ayla is smiling and laughing so much these days. She loves to snuggle and always wants to eat. At her last appointment, she was in the 90th percentile for both height and weight, following in the chubby footsteps of Kenley and Blake.

Kenley is in preschool a couple days a week. She loves it and it’s really good for her and for us. Luckily, it’s just a couple hours a week, because at this point, I don’t think I could let her go for more than that. She gets to paint and sing every time she goes, which she loves!

I’ve been working part time from home until I go back in the office at the beginning of next month. There have been some changes at my job which make me nervous for my sanity. I’m just now finding more time to really give The Sunshine Company some attention. (Check out the shop if you haven’t lately; lots of new things!)

Jeff and I are trying to carve out time for ourselves and each other. It’s difficult with an infant and a toddler, of course. We’re also trying to find ways to make room for Blake. We love another child, who is a girl, who looks so much like Blakey,  which is both hard and beautiful.

I hope you are all finding some kind of sunshine these days ☀️.

Attached are some photos of life lately.