Today marks the second anniversary of Blake’s death. Some people call it an angelversary or remembrance of the date of passing. It’s just a really hard and shitty day for Jeff and I. It’s a reminder (although we never forget) that our baby is no longer with us. It feels like yesterday and so long… Continue reading August 10, 2016
We aren’t very religious. I would say even less so since Blake died. Sometimes I think we’re spiritual but I don’t know. I’ve never been one to tie myself to anything like that. I wish I was certain about what happens after this life like so many others are. But I’m not. A few weeks… Continue reading Why?
This time last year, we started fundraising for the annual Cure SMA Walk-n-Roll that happens in our area. CureSMA is an organization we were introduced to shortly after Blake’s diagnosis. They do a lot of important and helpful things for families like ours during their most difficult times, all while passionately trying to find a… Continue reading Team Blake
We decided to take a little vacation. We’ve taken some sort of vacation before each of our babies were born. This time we ended up closer to home, on a lake with perfect weather and lots for Kenley to do. We’ve really needed a break with everything going on. I had forgotten how much work… Continue reading Vacation and Anniversary
I want to thank those of you who have reached out to me; it means a lot during this extremely difficult time. People whom I’ve never met are taking the time to think of us and pray for my family. That really blows me away and I’m grateful. Many people have asked how we’re doing.… Continue reading Easy?
Today, I attended one of my dearest friend’s husband’s Celebration of Life. He passed away, recently, after a long battle with cancer. He leaves behind two teenage children, a wife, a ton of extended family and so many others. While driving there, I couldn’t help but feel really angry. These kids and this amazing woman… Continue reading My friend
Blake’s diagnosis has shaken our lives. Not just mine and my husband’s, but our extended family, too. As I’ve said before, my mom, dad and sister have been supporting us and helping out. They’re around a lot, so they see and feel what’s happening. My sister, Lindsay, shared something with me and I asked her… Continue reading Extended family
We bought a sectional when I was pregnant with Blake. A couple months ago it started making noises. We had the warranty people come and look at it; turns out it’s toast and we get a new one! We decided to make a day of going to the furniture store to find a brand new… Continue reading Bunk beds
I’ve had a lot of people say some really nice things. They say I’m strong or doing so well under the circumstances. Those words really do mean a lot to me. I appreciate them more than I can express. However, I want to make sure not to give anyone a false sense of reality. I’m… Continue reading Hard
I’m sure it’s obvious from previous posts (and since I’m a human being) that anger is something I feel on the regular. I never thought anything could happen to my child. Bet that sounds naive. It is. I always figured, once your baby is born and examined, you’re good. I knew raising children would include… Continue reading Pissed