May is Foster Care Awareness Month and I’ve been a complete slacker. I thought I would answer some of the most common questions we’ve gotten to show some of the inside stuff. Not like it’s all super secret or anything, but I definitely thought of foster parents as fantastic superhuman creatures until I became one… Continue reading Foster Care Awareness
Today is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day or Child Loss Remembrance Day. I prefer the latter but that’s just me. One of the reasons this blog still exists is to spread awareness. It’s definitely more than just awareness of Spinal Muscular Atrophy (although you will NEVER stop hearing from me about SMA). It’s child… Continue reading October 15
Most loss parents dread the question, “How many children do you have?” I am one of them. I. Hate. It. Seriously, every single time I get that awful feeling of so much sadness and not knowing what to say. Do I tell them all about my family and accept the discomfort and look of terror… Continue reading Parenting
We aren’t very religious. I would say even less so since Blake died. Sometimes I think we’re spiritual but I don’t know. I’ve never been one to tie myself to anything like that. I wish I was certain about what happens after this life like so many others are. But I’m not. A few weeks… Continue reading Why?
Today, the girls, Jeff and I attended an annual memorial service at Seattle Children’s. This was our first year since we were unable to go last year. We walked into the same auditorium I spoke on a parent panel back in March. This time there was a table full of pictures and mementos of children… Continue reading Love never leaves
It was this time last year when doctors finally started listening to me. We got confirmation, after what felt like forever, that something “wasn’t normal (I hate this word)” with Blake’s development. Facebook has been reminding me of appointments, cryptic worry and all the unknowns during that time. It brings up more questions like, “Why… Continue reading A year ago
I was going through some of my mom’s pictures last night. Sometimes, I like to look at the photos my family took of Blake instead of my own. They have tons I’ve never seen (or don’t remember seeing) and I like that. This one in particular struck me. I mean, they all do, but today… Continue reading Running